Chemo Starts

Tomorrow isn't just a regular old appointment. The Chemo begins. I am not really afraid just want to see what's gonna happen.

Something real cool happened. The oncology nurse called me. I graduate high school with her. How cool is that? It was a surprise and very very cool. I am already at ease. It feels great. Weird huh? I am looking forward to chemo. Maybe not after tomorrow.

Things are going well.

I am ready to get this started. I have an appointment with Dr. Meshad.



This guys is super funny and really keeps things light for someone who deals with the kinda of illness he had to deal with all the time. I really like him and he makes me feel comfortable with how knowledgeable he is, at least with the last visit.

I am a little nervous with the unknown. Mostly on how I am going to feel. It's the weirdest thing to get in your car and drive yourself to the hospital or a doctors office knowing that when you get their something about you is going to be different, you will never be the same. When I was going to the hospital the day of the surgery I couldn't believe I had to take myself there, go there under my own power, to have my breast cut off. There are no words to explain how that feels. Now in just a week or so I have to take myself to these appointments where I am going to receive meds that will make my hair fall out and cause sores in my mouth and God only knows what else. Speaking of God, he is the only one getting me through this. My faith in His master plan for me is so solid that I can say I have no fear about the "end" results. I just hope I can get there with grace and peace. I have an open heart to whatever he puts before me and am excited to see what cancer will bring me. I know, not an attitude a lot have but I refuse to be bitter about cancer I am going to let it bless me.

My kids are doing ok. I have one that is acting out a bit but if that's as bad as it gets we will be fine.

Oh...Libby got bit by a spider. I wish I had taken a picture of it. It got her on the arm and then again on the butt. We aren't sure how that happened but it did. My poor little baby. She took it well and the doctors at the hospital were dumb asses but I won't even start in on them .....I'll just stop there.

Chickens stopped laying eggs a few days ago. I think it may be how the days have been going. Then sun has not come out in about a week. It looks like rain all day but never does. Maybe they will start again soon.

Not much more to report on. I am doing a lot of knitting. I have taken pictures but haven't uploaded them yet.

I got my port yesterday.

My spirits are up and have been for awhile. I am ready for the chemo to start but will still have to wait for a few weeks for the incisions to heal.

On another front...I did not make it into the Dental Hygiene school. There was so many people on the candidate list. Now I am on the alternate list. And that is just as good because I know there is a seat for me in May of 2013. There is always a chance I will make it in this May but a slim one. Either way I am willing to except it and except it graciously. It's all apart of God's master plan for me.

I am doing well. I went to the doctor yesterday and he says the infection is all clear and now this gives us the go ahead to get the port put in. This is what a port looks like.



The tube is fed into a vein that goes to the heart and the button part is under the skin as well. Something like this



This isn't me. I'll post my own picture after. Not to worried the surgeon seems very confident.
I'll post more later.