my breasts are gone, not so sure about the cancer. I won't know that until Wednesday. Things are going good. My kids were a little freaked out about the whole thing but they are coming around. Mostly my oldest was, the two little ones were a little scared but are back to themselves. The first day or two Libby stayed in the bed with me. It was as if she was afraid to leave me alone. She is my little sweet heart. The others are sweet hearts too......but still want me to get the hell up and make them a snack. I think having kids made a cancer diagnosis easier. I didn't have time to feel sorry for myself. And I didn't want to be angry and bitter around my kids. I think I decided this: Ok Angela, You are NOT gonna die right now but no matter when you ARE gonna die don't you want your kids to say "Man I had a kick ass Mom." So I am going to be a fun (but still be a parent) Mom. My kids are going to be the kids that like doing stuff with me.
On a more vain note. I have always been a big girl. I had 38DD and a big old stomach. My tits always kind of camouflaged the largeness of the tummy. Now there is nothing to camouflage it AT ALL. I am flat as hell and a big tummy.....well shit. CAN'T I CATCH A BREAK????
Just in case your wondering to yourself, the little bumps all over are Neurofibromatosis. It's why I waited so long to go get a Mammogram (I thought the lumps in my breast were neurofibromas)and also why my doctor decided to take my healthy breast. They didn't get real bad until my pregnancies.
Some really fantastic news......Are you READY FOR THIS????
Do you see the beautiful little lady, the brown one with the black tips...look what she did.
She laid her first one New years Eve....or at least that's when we found it. And then another New Years Day. I fried it and each of us had a bite. I promised my dad then next one. He called me tonight to see if she laid one. Not yet Pops...maybe tomorrow.
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With your attitude you will get through this. I've seen several people with cancer and those with a positive attitude always do better than the negative attitudes. I am sorry you have to go through this, but I'm most sorry that you have to go through this so soon after losing your mom. Boy, wouldn't like to have her around?! I was not as young as your girls, but my mom went through a life threatening time (I was probably around 11 when it started)and my only advice for your girls is to be honest with them. You don't have to be real detailed, but be honest. I'm thinking about you every day. Take care.
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